Most folks think Black Friday is all about shopping deals. For me it has an entirely different meaning. For me it represents trying to recover from a trip to my parents followed by a visit to the rehab facility to check on my father-in-law and then dimmer at their house.
Even though the most strenuous thing I did all day was to ride my wheelchair and eat a couple of meals the very fact that I was upright for that length of time left me in agony for most of last night and today.
It is now 9:00 in the evening and I am still hurting bad enough that I don't even feel Luke sitting up long enough toake a much needed trip to the restroom. I've been putting it off for about sn hour but the Milk of Magnesia I took earlier today is being rather insistant. I guess I need to take care of things regardless of how much pain it entails...
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Eyes glued shut
Do you remember a post a while back about my teary eyes causing my eyes to be crusted shut after I go to sleep?
Well.... Read it again. The problem seems to be pretty much a continual one now.
Well.... Read it again. The problem seems to be pretty much a continual one now.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Let's do the Time Warp again...
Something strange is happening to me. I can only assume that my medications are the culprit because sometimes they really knock me on my butt. (I have no idea why because I take the exact same meds every day with the only varience being the amount of loratab or percocet I might need. Maybe it has to do with the timing of the meds and meals...)
No, i am not developing the urge to jump to the left then step to the right (some of you will understand the reference to the title of this entry...). What i am talking about is the complete loss of chunks of time Whatever the cause, I have found myself loosing track of time and realizing that I have no idea what has taken place or even how much time has gone by.
These episodes are hard to explain but maybe an example will help. I might be watching a football game on television and realize that I suddenly have no idea how the offence has gotten the ball into the red zone.
What bothers me theist is not knowing if the problem is the meds affecting my short term memory or if it is more serious than that. Either way, it is probably for the best that I am not driving....
No, i am not developing the urge to jump to the left then step to the right (some of you will understand the reference to the title of this entry...). What i am talking about is the complete loss of chunks of time Whatever the cause, I have found myself loosing track of time and realizing that I have no idea what has taken place or even how much time has gone by.
These episodes are hard to explain but maybe an example will help. I might be watching a football game on television and realize that I suddenly have no idea how the offence has gotten the ball into the red zone.
What bothers me theist is not knowing if the problem is the meds affecting my short term memory or if it is more serious than that. Either way, it is probably for the best that I am not driving....
Thursday, November 5, 2009
This is getting old...
What can I say? My knees hurt. My back hurts. When exhaustion finally allows me to sleep it is fitfull and comes in short bursts. Almost constant pain causes me to be weepy even in my sleep and the result is eyelashes crusted with "sand" on a regular basis.
All things considered I guess I shouldn't be surprised. Today was no different than yesterday or the day before or the day before.....
All things considered I guess I shouldn't be surprised. Today was no different than yesterday or the day before or the day before.....
Sunday, October 25, 2009
How could I forget?
Until the past week or ten days, when night time temps consistantly got down to about 40, I had forgotten how much my knees hurt during the winter. It has become almost unbearable to place any weight on them and making it to the restroom is even becoming a burdon.
I did make the effort to go next door last night to have dinner with my wife and her family and, while the food and fellowship were great, I was forced to sit on my rollator because me knees just would not let me get up from their furniture (all of which is standard height) on my own.
Despite the knee pain I still stayed there until my back pain told me that I had already been sitting up for far too long and so I returned to the house. The pain kept me awake past 3:00 AM despite the loratab and percoset. .
My wife still has about a month of recovery ahead of her. I can't help but wonder how much time we will spend face to face during that time. If this level of pain keeps up then I can probably count those visits on one hand.
Being disabled and:or handicapped (I font even know how to classify myself) would be so much easier to live with if the reason fir the disability were not pain....
I did make the effort to go next door last night to have dinner with my wife and her family and, while the food and fellowship were great, I was forced to sit on my rollator because me knees just would not let me get up from their furniture (all of which is standard height) on my own.
Despite the knee pain I still stayed there until my back pain told me that I had already been sitting up for far too long and so I returned to the house. The pain kept me awake past 3:00 AM despite the loratab and percoset. .
My wife still has about a month of recovery ahead of her. I can't help but wonder how much time we will spend face to face during that time. If this level of pain keeps up then I can probably count those visits on one hand.
Being disabled and:or handicapped (I font even know how to classify myself) would be so much easier to live with if the reason fir the disability were not pain....
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
And the costs keep rising...
My wife spent 10 days in the hospital and I was only physically able to visit get twice.
Three days after she was released her dad suffered a massive stroke was hospitalized fir a week before being transfered to a rehab facility. I have yet to be physically able to visit him.
My wife is currently staying at her oarents house (she has been there almost 2 weeks) as she recovers from surgery and, despite the fact that she is virtually next door, the steps in the house combined with the low seating furniture cause do much knee pain (rising up from a low chair, sofa, or toilet) has kept me from staying over there with her or even visiting her more than a few times.
I don't know if my back pain or bad knees will ever allow me to do the things I would like to do. One thing I do know is that I will never again take for granted the things I now find difficult if not impossible.
It has been 6 months since I was able to work and a year since I was able to attend church regularily. If i weren't careful it would be so easy for depression to fill those voids in my life...
Three days after she was released her dad suffered a massive stroke was hospitalized fir a week before being transfered to a rehab facility. I have yet to be physically able to visit him.
My wife is currently staying at her oarents house (she has been there almost 2 weeks) as she recovers from surgery and, despite the fact that she is virtually next door, the steps in the house combined with the low seating furniture cause do much knee pain (rising up from a low chair, sofa, or toilet) has kept me from staying over there with her or even visiting her more than a few times.
I don't know if my back pain or bad knees will ever allow me to do the things I would like to do. One thing I do know is that I will never again take for granted the things I now find difficult if not impossible.
It has been 6 months since I was able to work and a year since I was able to attend church regularily. If i weren't careful it would be so easy for depression to fill those voids in my life...
Monday, October 5, 2009
The Cost of Disability
Anybody that knows me well at all can tell you how much my wife means to me. While we are just coming up on our 26th anniversary, we dated for 7 years prior to that which means that she has been the love of my life for 2/3 of my life.
The reason for sharing this is to shed some insight into just how "handicapped" I am.
My wife has just spent 10 days in the hospital during which time she underwent surgery. During that time I only managed 2 visits to the hospital.
Unfortunately those visits, on back to back days about a week ago, really caused a lot of pain for the next several days.
The increased pain caused an increase in pain meds which resulted in me getting "backed up" which only made the back problem worse.
So... For the past few days I have been dealing with that issue and 50+ trips to the restroom caused my knees to go on strike. Their union is demanding some down time to recover from the step in the bathroom combined with standing up from a low toilet multiplied by 50+ trips in a 2 day period....
At least my wife is no longer in the hospital.
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The reason for sharing this is to shed some insight into just how "handicapped" I am.
My wife has just spent 10 days in the hospital during which time she underwent surgery. During that time I only managed 2 visits to the hospital.
Unfortunately those visits, on back to back days about a week ago, really caused a lot of pain for the next several days.
The increased pain caused an increase in pain meds which resulted in me getting "backed up" which only made the back problem worse.
So... For the past few days I have been dealing with that issue and 50+ trips to the restroom caused my knees to go on strike. Their union is demanding some down time to recover from the step in the bathroom combined with standing up from a low toilet multiplied by 50+ trips in a 2 day period....
At least my wife is no longer in the hospital.
Mobile Blogging from here.
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