Until the past week or ten days, when night time temps consistantly got down to about 40, I had forgotten how much my knees hurt during the winter. It has become almost unbearable to place any weight on them and making it to the restroom is even becoming a burdon.
I did make the effort to go next door last night to have dinner with my wife and her family and, while the food and fellowship were great, I was forced to sit on my rollator because me knees just would not let me get up from their furniture (all of which is standard height) on my own.
Despite the knee pain I still stayed there until my back pain told me that I had already been sitting up for far too long and so I returned to the house. The pain kept me awake past 3:00 AM despite the loratab and percoset. .
My wife still has about a month of recovery ahead of her. I can't help but wonder how much time we will spend face to face during that time. If this level of pain keeps up then I can probably count those visits on one hand.
Being disabled and:or handicapped (I font even know how to classify myself) would be so much easier to live with if the reason fir the disability were not pain....
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
And the costs keep rising...
My wife spent 10 days in the hospital and I was only physically able to visit get twice.
Three days after she was released her dad suffered a massive stroke was hospitalized fir a week before being transfered to a rehab facility. I have yet to be physically able to visit him.
My wife is currently staying at her oarents house (she has been there almost 2 weeks) as she recovers from surgery and, despite the fact that she is virtually next door, the steps in the house combined with the low seating furniture cause do much knee pain (rising up from a low chair, sofa, or toilet) has kept me from staying over there with her or even visiting her more than a few times.
I don't know if my back pain or bad knees will ever allow me to do the things I would like to do. One thing I do know is that I will never again take for granted the things I now find difficult if not impossible.
It has been 6 months since I was able to work and a year since I was able to attend church regularily. If i weren't careful it would be so easy for depression to fill those voids in my life...
Three days after she was released her dad suffered a massive stroke was hospitalized fir a week before being transfered to a rehab facility. I have yet to be physically able to visit him.
My wife is currently staying at her oarents house (she has been there almost 2 weeks) as she recovers from surgery and, despite the fact that she is virtually next door, the steps in the house combined with the low seating furniture cause do much knee pain (rising up from a low chair, sofa, or toilet) has kept me from staying over there with her or even visiting her more than a few times.
I don't know if my back pain or bad knees will ever allow me to do the things I would like to do. One thing I do know is that I will never again take for granted the things I now find difficult if not impossible.
It has been 6 months since I was able to work and a year since I was able to attend church regularily. If i weren't careful it would be so easy for depression to fill those voids in my life...
Monday, October 5, 2009
The Cost of Disability
Anybody that knows me well at all can tell you how much my wife means to me. While we are just coming up on our 26th anniversary, we dated for 7 years prior to that which means that she has been the love of my life for 2/3 of my life.
The reason for sharing this is to shed some insight into just how "handicapped" I am.
My wife has just spent 10 days in the hospital during which time she underwent surgery. During that time I only managed 2 visits to the hospital.
Unfortunately those visits, on back to back days about a week ago, really caused a lot of pain for the next several days.
The increased pain caused an increase in pain meds which resulted in me getting "backed up" which only made the back problem worse.
So... For the past few days I have been dealing with that issue and 50+ trips to the restroom caused my knees to go on strike. Their union is demanding some down time to recover from the step in the bathroom combined with standing up from a low toilet multiplied by 50+ trips in a 2 day period....
At least my wife is no longer in the hospital.
Mobile Blogging from here.
The reason for sharing this is to shed some insight into just how "handicapped" I am.
My wife has just spent 10 days in the hospital during which time she underwent surgery. During that time I only managed 2 visits to the hospital.
Unfortunately those visits, on back to back days about a week ago, really caused a lot of pain for the next several days.
The increased pain caused an increase in pain meds which resulted in me getting "backed up" which only made the back problem worse.
So... For the past few days I have been dealing with that issue and 50+ trips to the restroom caused my knees to go on strike. Their union is demanding some down time to recover from the step in the bathroom combined with standing up from a low toilet multiplied by 50+ trips in a 2 day period....
At least my wife is no longer in the hospital.
Mobile Blogging from here.
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