I feel like I've lost my right arm

It used to be a popular phrase for someone to say that they would, "give their right arm" for something. Those of us that gave had to give up a large part if who they are would never say that however.

It is bad fnough to watch TV and see folks doing something that you know that you will probably never be able to do again. These are things that a normal person does every day and takes for granted. They include running or jogging even the shortest distances, going up or down stairs without a thought, or even glancing at a ladder without a body-shaking shudder at the mere prospect at the pain involved at having to climb up or down one.

These dissapointments are obvious ones bot not the one that I am referring to. What I am referring to us the fact that is Sunday morning and I am not at church with my wife.

For those of you that don't know me well, my relationship with Christ and my involvement with church has been a Huge part of my life ever since I was a young boy. Growing up my parents took us (me & my 2 brothers) to church every Sunday morning and evening and then again on Wednesday night. We did thus not because we were supposed to, but rather because we wanted to.

Once I graduated from Hugh School in 1980 I began what was an almost uninterrupted 29 year service of teaching Sunday School class. For the past 12-14 years I worked with the teens at the church and taught lessons 3 times a week.

You see, going to church was nothing that I did out of tradition or obligation but something that I did on a regular basis to surround myself with fellow Believers, to participate in the worship of Gid, and to serve Him and follow my passion by teaching and trying to make an pact on today's youth.

All this was becoming increasingly more difficult, however, and I finally had to admit to myself that I could no longer attend church regularily like I used to much less follow my passion and calling to work with the teens.

It has been 8.5 months since then and there has only been 2-3 times that I have been up to attending church (and that was the church that is closest to my house...)

I literally feel like I have lost my right arm. Especially when my wife leaves for church ansdwaves bye to me. How is an amputee supposed to wave back?

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